Y2 S2 Countdown @ UNNC

I'm left with two papers finally.
Having 7 papers isn't fun at all - there are 7 modules.
Fortunately, 7 papers in 3 weeks is still acceptable.
But as usual there are more shitty ones than OKs.
I have degraded my expectation to so low that I don't feel any impact after doing very shitty papers.
So how?

Once upon a time, I dreamed to achieve FIRST CLASS HONOUR.
I hope this dream sticks and I will go all out in my final year, despite foreseeing myself being busy with my society work as a VP.
I know I can do it, that's why I ran for the post initially, right?
I guess so.

This year, countdown means a lot to me as well - I'm finally stepping in the land with Tropical Forests and All Year Long Summer, again.
Yay! People, food, bed, WAIT FOR ME! :D

Of course, I will miss part of my life here - not just Taobao which I know I'll miss A LOT, but also the people and how much you can grumble just because you are an international student who is given very high priority and attention here as you are minority.
I'll miss the life on campus, where everything is so convenient, and you have people knocking on your door randomly, or staying in a friend's room to crap for hours and hours, or watching movie together.

Next, countdown means I am meeting my friend in Shanghai, I am travelling in Guilin before returning.
I am so looking forward to seeing Lavender field in Shanghai, and having fun with my homestay partner in her hometown.

I am so bored, and hence lots of selca are taken.

WYT: I'm showing off my new headphones on the right :P

Blink my eyes MORE and MORE, and everything will be over soon :')

200th Post - My OCPD

I guess I can't find other suitable topics besides describing my OCPD (Obsessive Compulsive Personality Disorder) as my post No.200.

I think due to my mum's influence, I have this tendency of seeing NO DUST in my room. Well of course I have times when I get lazy, but when I start wiping stuff, I tend to get the whole room covered, which scared off my friends. At least, I pick up hair on the floor though I know the cleaner is coming to clean my room the next day.

I like my stuff to be arranged orderly. I have A LOT of stuff and if not arranged orderly, my room would have looked like some other European's room right now. I am a girl and I have the responsibility to make my room presentable all the time.

I fold my blanket nicely and neatly everytime after I get up, regardless whether it's a good night sleep and a short afternoon nap.

I need to use softener everytime I wash my clothes. (Lately I'm running out of them though and not planning to get a new one as I know I definitely can't finish them. Need to bare with it. Argh!!)

And lately, I dunno what the heck has happened to me but I've been checking my emails non-stop to make sure every mailbox has zero unread mails, as serious as every half an hour once. I've gone crazy I guess. Shiattts!!

I know I have more.

OOHH! This is me running for VP - click. Basically I think this video SUCKS (My English sounds extremely weird) but I had no choice as I ran out of time.) And I made it! Yay! :D

Questions I Find Awkward

Q: When are you coming back?
A: I like to give surprises so if you can stop asking me, you'll be surprised :)
My Conclusion: People anticipate my return :D

Q: No boyfriend yet?
A: No.
Q: Why don't get one?
A: If I can't find someone that's suitable, why force myself?
Conclusion: You have high expectation.
A: No I don't think so. Boys think that I have high expectation.
My Conclusion: Approaching the age 21 is indeed a sensitive period. Aih.

Driving forces!!!

Tagged (Ages ago...)

All of the sudden, I found this saved in my draft.
I shall fill it in now and post it since I feel so dead looking at my coursework.

01 Where did you take your profile pic? (Facebook)

Robin Hood Restaurant, UNNC. It was during the so-called Spring Ball.

02 What exactly are you wearing right now?

Long-sleeves dark blue shirt + jeans-like tights.

03 What is your current problem?

Feeling dead looking at my coursework. Lack of motivation. Poor time management.

04 What makes you happy most?

I guess anything small simple thing, as long as it's with my family and friends.

05 What's the name of the song that you're listening to?

I'll make love to you - Boyz II Men (A totally random song)

06 Any celeb you would marry?

In my dream, yes. Any cute Korean artists, or even Ang Mohs like Zac Efron or Chace Crawford :P

07 Name someone with the same birthday as you?

Dunno yet.

08 Ever sang in front of a large audience?

Yup. Primary school, secondary school, college, university.

09 Has anyone ever said you look like a celebrity?

Yes I've heard. I look like Bat Liong Gam when I had my fringe cut. (Definitely not a compliment)

10 Do you still watch kiddie movies or kiddie TV shows?

I wish I can still find one good one to watch.

11 Do you speak any language?

What kind of stupid question is this ==

12 Do you ever watch MTV?

Channel or the videos? I love youtube and I spent half of my youtubing time on MVs.

Chapter 1:

01 Nickname(s):  

Dunno lar.

02 Current location:

My warm and cosy room in UNNC.

03 Eye color: 

Undeniable black

Chapter 2:

01 You call a question a chapter? :

I call downs as chapters in my life.

02 Do you get along well with your parents? : 

Yup.

Chapter 3: Favorites

01 Ice cream:  

Vanilla, the best pure ones.

02 Shampoo/conditioner: 

Anything affordable.

03 Person/People:  

People I love hanging out together and cherish.

Chapter 4: Do You...

01 Dance in the shower?

Sing most of the time.

02 Do you write on your hand? 

Seldom. I have a smart phone which is not stupid.

03 Call people back?

Depends on who the person is.

04 Believe in love? 

Yet to be found out.

05 Any mental health issues?

OCPD (Obsessive Compulsive Personality Disorder) counts? (OCD is no longer used as Wiki says it needs medical attention which sounds very serious)

Chapter 5: Have You..

01 Broken a bone? 

Haven't and do not want it to happen.

02 Sprained anything? 

Leg.

03 Had physical therapy? 

Not yet and do not it to happen.

04 Gotten stitches ?

Yes, when I was young.

05 Taken painkillers? 

I think so.

HOW I END MY SENTENCES

01 I love:  

Eat, Sleep, Talk and Shop!

02 I don't understand:

Why there are such people exist.

03 When I wake up in the morning: 

I immediately get myself washed up to start a brand new day!

04 Life is full of:

Ups and downs.

05 I get annoyed very quickly when: 

The person I am against to talks to me, or acting stupid in front of me.

06 Parties are: 

Awesome when you're with a bunch of crazy friends.

07 Female Dogs are: 

Bitches?

08 Cats are: 

Malay's favourite pets.

09 Tomorrow is:

Monday.

10 I have a low tolerance for: 

The person I am against to does all her stupid shit reasoning.

11 If I had a million dollars I would:

Invest half, save a quarter, spend a quarter.

Librans?

I feel so sad and pathetic for myself.
I feel like an idiot who hasn't learned enough from past experience.

I've tried all my best to self-motivate myself, in order to keep myself positive.
But...
Life's tend to be full of ups and downs.
Ups are always enjoyable but doesn't last long.
Downs always come to befriend with me, so afraid that I would be lonely.
Yet, I feel ultimately lonely when downs visit me.
Especially when you have happy people around you, and it seems like you're the only unhappy person.

This is pure stupid.

Doing half the group coursework myself?
I don't wanna voice out, because it will make them sound stupid, ultimately useless brats.
Fair enough, I carry 30/100 marks of the project, the hardest and heaviest 30 marks.
Hopefully they don't gimme trouble when I proof-read their work.
It will make me vomit.

Isn't this sad and pathetic?

I have everything against HER.
Why do I have such strong biased towards her?
Anything and everything about her, I have something to criticise on.
This is so childish.
Please get out of my sight so that I can be a big girl.
You need to stop talking to me so that I don't sound like an arrogant person in front of you.
I won't call you a bitch because you haven't reached that level.
You don't even have enough to reach that level.

It must be my problem as I don't wanna blame anyone else.
It is my problem for not communicating with them.
It is my problem to have initial good perception on them.
It is my problem that I can't tolerate with anything about her.
It is my problem to not understanding her, though I tried.

I can't help but to break my resolution, to complain here.

But, I am an October baby, a Libran.
I can't deny what horoscope tellers say about Librans because most of the time I find them matching, not me matching them but them matching my personality.

Was in such a bad mood that I decided to have a hair cut and take selca. Stupid!

Stupid.

Using.

I think I've been using my blog, only when I need to say something but have no where to express.

I'm so sorry blog. Please don't be sad.

I'm still glad to know you're always by my side, whenever I need a place to release my inner feelings.

Thank U ;)


But recently, I have NO TIME to blog.
Well it's of course my time management problem.
So I shall come back soon, at the end of April to sayang you.

Solution Obtained

I had decided to tell out my hidden feelings to the one I'm closest with in this campus.
I am glad that I made this decision, as who understands the whole situation other than her?

Solution:
她开心就好。(As long as she's happy with it.)

She should and needs to undergo all these. She's elder than me and it's fair enough for her to undergo all these at her age.

All my complaints should come to a stop, as it is my New Year's Resolution to complain less. I think I've used up my whole year quota to complain just on her. Sheeshhhh.

Thanks darlings, Michelle and Yi Theng :)

[Still, I talk to myself. If it was me, would I be like her? Well maybe it's not her problem afterall. Maybe she's trying to talk to us, just like before. But thing's changed and it is the damn true fact.
At this stage, I still think that family and friends are my utmost important people in life. I don't think I can bear to risk my friendships. It is a big question mark, in my head all the time.]

Yes, I need a post-it to remind myself and Yes, I expect her not to come into my room anymore.

1st CNY far from a place I call H.O.M.E

I realise since I've been to Ningbo, I haven't really posted enough blog entries. I know I should, but I keep blaming the almighty Great Wall of China that makes it hard to enter blogspot page.

Cut things short (and sweet):
I had Reunion Dinner and spent first half of the 1st Day of CNY at a local's house, a random friend we knew while lining up to get our bank account set up in Finance Office, back to 1st week of arrival. She's being friendly to invite us to her house :)

The second half of the 1st Day of CNY, I rushed back to campus, get packed and sat the latest train to Shanghai. I spent a night of Shanghai Hongqiao Airport. The next day, my friend and I went all the way to a Korean restaurant to have really good meal. We finally reached our destination, Yinchuan, Ningxia (银川，宁夏回族自治区) to meet our respective homestay partners, on my thickest clothes found in my closet.

I stayed there from 24th Jan - 31st Jan, went to numerous houses to have good CNY meals, some tourist spots and skiing.

I left to Beijing on the night of 31st Jan, sitting upstraight on the wah-very-hard-stuffy-and-packed train. Reached Beijing in one piece, with a ill travelling buddy. Under the extreme weather condition (COLD + WIND = CHILLING), I managed to conquer two famous Peking Duck restaurants, Yi He Yuan, Yong He Gong Lama Temple, Gu Gong, Bird's Nest and Water Cube. It was a 6D5N trip and I think I didn't do much there. What a waste =/

That's all. I love how Malaysian Chinese celebrate CNY. I think we are more traditional in a way. According to my friend, the Chinese are probably brainwashed by Mou Zedong during Cultural Revolution.

[What a boring post]